Friday, December 25, 2009

The Most Wonderful Christmas

Christmas time in the city; its 1:30 Christmas morning and where did the time go? I am thinking back 4 years ago about this time that I underwent my mastectomy after discovering that I had breast cancer. Four years ago, it was only six years ago that I moved in with my sweetie, again around Christmas time. That was our first Christmas together, in our new house; it was establishing new traditions and letting go of the many old ones that we created as a family of two with two dogs.

We have spent another wonderful day with my daughter and her future husband. I am not quite sure how to mark this Christmas Eve down for us. My daughter and I are making new memories as Sarah and daughter, which will eventually, I expect, balance out the many years she has of me as her father! So many things were explained tonight that I have only wished and hoped would begin to thaw. Not only I had breast cancer, but I have recently learned that my ex wife had breast cancer and she had to have both chemo and radiation therapy which caused her hair to fall out. Julie is trying to get her brothers to come around and says that she takes my side when they begin to complain about my life and how I treated them. She also says that my ex will remind them of what all I did for them when they were growing up. To me, that is pretty amazing in itself; however, that said I don’t think she will call me up to chat; but still. I had always assumed that my ex and I had never crossed paths when I am out an about with Kay since our divorce, but Julie says that she has seem me several times and I that I did not recognized her. I guess I wasn’t looking for her in the crowd so much as I didn’t expect her to come within 500 ft of me. Now I am curious as to when she has seen me around town now that I know her hair fell out and she looks totally different. Julie also said that her Uncle had spotted me out and about and that he had told her to tell us that he hopes we are doing well. Wow!!

Julie sat down and had a long conversation with the person who is doing a documentary about my life and she said that it was because of some of his questions that made her re-think about things in a different perspective. She believes her brother is at a place in his life that would be willing to set down and talk about how he feels about me and the way I am living my life now. The ice is cracking!! I can only hope that my oldest son and his wife will someday speak to me.

My daughter, Julie is a very beautiful, insightful woman; she is not one to follow the crowd and since graduation from the University has made her own way. I can not describe the joy and love that she has shown to Kay and me. And I most certainly am having a hard time putting into words the joy and wonder that Kay and I have discovered this Christmas, especially.

This has got to be one of the best Christmas’ that I have ever experienced.

Merry Christmas, Auntee Sarah


motheramelia said...

Mad Priest is right. It is a Thanks Be To God time. Blessings on you, your family and your journey.

Grandmère Mimi said...

Sarah, how lovely that the ice is melting between you and Julie. I pray that your relationship gets better and better and that your sons come round, too. I'm so pleased that you had a lovely Christmas Day.

susankay said...

Yeah, fur shur -- God is always, always deeply in favor of love.

Blessings be.